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20/04

Kicking my feet very excitedly at the new serverblight episode being out.........

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18/04

I have many thoughts about Hololive.... hmm. First of all, all of my favourite girls keeps graduating... Ame Fauna Mumei Gura... I feel like a lot of the problems has to do with cover being a Japanese company so EN branch doesn't get a lot of opportunities and priority as JP does... as for Aqua and Shion, they've always been pretty inactive so i guessed that they'd already be going away for quite some time now.

I'm just not That attached to Hololive in general anymore. i've already been sort of detached from hololive since 2024 but at least my favourites were still there.... i might just stick to ex-holos? 0 _ 0 i'll still tune into ina's drawing streams if i see that she's live though! and I'll always listen to Marine's new songs... pai pai kamen wa dou kashiran....

Anyway. I decided to post my gura art and i got notifications fast and it scared me so now I'm too scared to even click on them...

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15/04

GURA??????????????????????????????

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08/04

My finger ate my phone's wrath and now it's a little swollen w o o p s i e

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04/04

It is April Fellas. I have Ririchiyo-sama's prize figure now, I managed to nab her for just 20€! Pretty cheap for a figure that no longer has any factories producing it. After I bought it for 20€ on a figure buying site, the prize went up from 20€ to 45€. Seems like another seller had it for a higher price, so I'm glad I gave into my desires of having an Inu x Boku SS figure in my room before it got more expensive. It's a very precious anime to me even if it's objectively Not Good (the main character is just like me for real for real.... {image of denji crying at the tv})

I was expecting the figure to have a broken base or something but the only thing that was "bad" was that the box was kind of oddly shaped from being already opened but that's to be expected from a pre-owned figure. I don't care too much for the shape of boxes.



Also. One more picture of gooba with proper lighting because her pop up parade is mecha kucha kawaii.

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28/03

MMMMMMMMMMUUUUMMMMMMEEEEEEEEIIIIIIII?????????

Almost 4 months into 2025 and I just remembered to change my age from 20 to 21 in my about page. Oops.

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25/03

Hihihihi!! I got my Gura pop up parade! I've always dreamt of buying something Holo-related and I love Gura's design so it was only natural hers would be the first. She's so cute but a lot smaller than my 1/8 miku scale O_O I also think they should've made her tail a lot fatter and bigger. The base is also super basic for the price but oh well. She's cute



also Help my front hair has become so long. but i shant cut it.

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09/03

wow. Helo. I forgot to type anything at all for February. I haven't spoken to people for a month now. Help. How do I get out of my cave. DONT SAY YOU ARE LAZY DATTE HONTOU WA CRAZY
I'm starting to get back into watching anime again. I need to go read manga again I haven't read anything for so long. Re:Zero is ok. It is Just Ok. I still need to watch Kusuriya no Hitorigoto and Chi. Chikyuu... I need to learn how to think again. I can't form a single thought. Hooray

VTubers, taking care of myself physically, watching anime and listening to VOCALOID music has been taking up all my time. I also sometimes just space out and 2 hours pass when it feels like it was 10 minutes... it's a big Problemo problem
ANYWAY happy miku day i love miku and i love staring at her on my desk. she is so beautiful. this song is one of my favorites for the newer VOCALOID music because it combines being a video game AND a song???++??? How. new gen vocaloid fans are crazy.

For VTubers I've been watching a lot of Nimi Nightmare... nonstop nimi nightmare dudududududud. I've just been watching her The Walking Dead VODs though. Season 1 was so great... I remember watching PewDiePie play it when I was 10 staying up late when I shouldn't have. Also a 10 year old should not um consume that sort of media but. unrestricted internet access. I've also been watching Gigi Murin whenever she is Online and Gaming. Her Geometry Dash stream was my favorite!! She's so good at playing rhythm games and rambling at the same time. I also tend to feel a little bit easily bored if there's not enough conversations being made from the streamer to the audience but Gigi just doesn't have any dead air she's insane.

PROBABLY LASTLY but the new miku proseka movie came out and i lament knowing that a digital release will not be available for 6 months or more. i don't know if cinemas in my country even has it so i Envy anyone who can watch it. Very upsetting!!!!!!!! Anyway the trailer had the disappearence of miku references to it and it made me go crazy. For Video Games I haven't played much aside from the regulars: TF2, YGH Master Duel, Holocure and Minecraft. (ᵕ— ᴗ —) I will say that I finished MiSide last month(? or in january I forgot), and I thought the game design was cool but story-wise it wasn't all that special. The highlight was mainly the cool creative rooms and minigames but I could not care much for the story since it doesn't feel like it was expanded on enough. I don't like making comparisons but for a better example, DDLC has a runtime of 4 hours but manages to leave you satisfied and think that "yes, the story is done and complete". But for MiSide it just didn't feel complete. ALSO WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THE SKIRT PHYSICS. But um .. Yeap. I just didn't feel satisfied when I finished MiSide. I know it's an indie game made by two people so it's not gonna be that expansive which is ok but just because a game is indie doesn't mean it can't have more depth to it story-wise, I feel like that was just a deliberate decision. I will say that I didn't feel bored when playing it though! I give it a 3/5. Could be better. ⌐(⛔︎ω⛔︎)⌟

I forgot to say why ive been gone mostly in thefirst place! Woops ( ;´ - `;)

My body decided to inherit another illness and i was bedridden for a lot of the time and couldn't stand up or sit down or even lie down without a lot of pain so I couldn't sleep for the first few days °▱°... the Insomnia Special was pretty cool. But then I could stand up and walk around eventually with still some pain but I could ignore it now . Thanks to the treatment it got better and better and by the end of it I could stand walk and sit again without any pain. I'm never taking my health for granted again (I say that, but I probably will.).

That is all I'll share for now. Goodbye.

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27/01

wow I am Veeeery late hello. Time is still going fast, but I've stopped feeling any fear regarding it because it is being spent doing the things I enjoy doing which is lazing about and consuming stuff I enjoy. I usually don't really feel the need to share what I think or feel so I suppose it can explain the lack of updates overall. Well today I do feel like sharing something funny.

I wanted to refund something I bought today so I tried to refund it on the internet but it always redirected me to the contact support page rather than just letting me completely refund it... so I contacted, asking to be refunded, but I got bribed by the support into not refunding it by giving me free extra products that corresponded with the product I was trying to refund and I accepted it because I have social anxiety and can't talk to support people that long without wanting to run away.

They said I was eligible for a refund but still kept on offering free products with no charges and igfidsghsdgjg.sg.sdg.ds.gh.sdfgdsgjdsjgjdg.d I should've just kept saying no a lot more but the longer it went on I just wanted to not interact with the customer support anymore...

anyway Kicking off the first post of 2025 with a certified Zero banger aren't we . aside from that ihaven't seen anime for 2 months i don't know what's wrong with me

today i feel like this. Thank you



also my back has been hurting because of my shrimp posture so i fixed my ergonomic chair to make it more straight and it feels Weird but it solved my back pain. Sit straight everyone... It's good for you...

15/12

months are passing like days. pls send help

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06/12

I am back after a month to say i am losing my mind every single day ooo yea mr krabs i like spongebob spongebob is a very good show i also havent listened to new vocaloid music or watched anime in the last 3 weeks i am losing it i am going ballistic aaaa ooo yyuueyygfhdshhshsha i like Cars (this is a lie i hate cars and people who like cars or are interested in vehicles in any shape or form do not talk about cars to me i will roll my eyes so far away my eyes will reach my brain)

oh. Yes. i haven't played (oh no im going to say it) LEAGUE of legends in the last 7 years but i decided to try it out again. yes i was a child when i first started playing it, yes it was on my old laptop. Anyway lulu is very cute i like her, she was my main back then. typical GIRL maining SUPPORT..... and also i liked sona because she resembles miku but also because her lore struck a chord with me. it's very sad

but aside from that i also like playing veigar and jhin still! i do not understand runes whatsoever (does anyone remember masteries) and teammates still do spam ping ? at me sometimes because i play with my brain off so nothings changed

so then you ask. Zero. why did you start playing the game. Well..... it's this gremlins fault.....



gigi streamed it and it made me feel nostalgic . it made me wish i had friends to play with ;;; but alas. i will be a Solo queue wanderer. a lone wanderer if you will .

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06/11

I finished Wotakoi in 2 days. Potent

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04/11

November is here and so is my existential dread towards the flying march of time! I finished MM! and started Wotakoi. Why is MM!'s opening so catchy...


「　No!! Jesus crisis, oh my god! 神の仕事～」 www It's definitely not a well-written or a special anime by any means but for some reason it was funny to watch it. After Wotakoi I'm thinking of maybe starting Baka to Test or some other anime I've been meaning to watch.

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21/10

I watched all of Frieren in 4 days. Hmmm. Good anime ... [always watches well-received seasonals 1 year later.] Everything was a masterpiece for 18-ish episodes then, well, the exam arc began and my interested waned a little bit. It's still great but I wouldn't say it's a 10/10 masterpiece.

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07/10

I cried, watching Akatsuki no Yona's 2nd episode... TT why am i so weak
I miss shoujo anime in general so I think I'll also watch Sugar Apple Fairy tale since it's a new gen shoujo.

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23/09

Hi!!!! My 2nd VOCALOID playlist on YouTube has 4.1k videos already, time flies... didn't I make the 2nd playlist a year ago? 草 It filled up so fast...
My 1st VOCALOID playlist has 5k videos, so... I've listened to 9.1k VOCALOID songs in total during my lifetime. I'm an expert in VOCALOID producers hahaaha!!!!!!

Today I've come across 2 producers that resembles the music style I like the most... I love Miku's V2 voicebank in general which is why I like to build up on my knowledge of old producers. These two producers are RaychoruiP and himawari. Here is one of RaychoruiP-san's songs that I recommend link 1 and himawari-san as well link 2. (the links work, I'm just too lazy to properly label them.)


Click on the images to view them at 100% resolution.

I'd like to finally finish a few manga I've been taking my time with (aka not reading for the past year... i've become illiterate) which is Oushitsu Kyoushi Heine, Chi no Wadachi and Sachi-iro no One Room.



Speaking of consuming media, I've finished watching Shoushimin Series which is written by the same author of Hyouka. It has the same solving mundane/trivial mysteries feeling to it but there's also more than just that. I like that it didn't go the traditional romance route, sometimes it's just nice to see a male and female lead being friends. If I had to say, Shoushimin Series is like if Bakemonogatari, Hyouka and Death Note had a child (with it being far more Hyouka-like than the other two).



I've also finished watching Dead dead demons dededededestruction too. I read the manga a few years (probably in 2020?) before it actually got its adaptation so it was a nice way of refreshing my memory... I know it's childish but I sometimes cried when I saw the "invaders" getting shot by humans since they're small and helpless... I also didn't think they could bring Inio Asano-san's work to life due to how unique his art style is but they managed to do it well! Overall it had a very Evangelion/Steins;gate feel to it, also with the Doraemon references in it... lol. Definitely one of the top sci-fi animes for sure. I loved the first ending song because it fits the chaotic looming apocalypse atmosphere of the anime. Listen to it if you like metal! link 3

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20/09

どうか、どうにかして、あたしの弱い心をもう一度強くさせて

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04/09

Hell o! August was an interesting month for me mentally... I still haven't really socialized much with people whatsoever recently. el hermit goblino... ｺｿｺｿ It's already september a aaaaaa aa aa a a a aa a a please make time stop moving i'm scared...


I've been relaxing nonchalantly. Although, a week(? i lost track of time) ago, my monitor stopped working so I've been using my art tablet as my main monitor instead. Everything's so small!!! I also hunch over a lot to be able to read what's on the screen... I need to fix my monitor soon uuaaaaaaaa. I still don't know what happened because it was working fine and I turned it off normally then the next day boom... monitor black forever... it's ok though! I've been able to survive. But because playing a lot of games like TF2 is hard with a small art tablet monitor, I've just been playing games like Yu-Gi-Oh! Master duel instead. I ended up becoming plat 3 rank so fast... and I learned the Vaalmonica & Traptrix decks! Very fun. I've been trying out the Live Twin deck too.
[[[note that all of my decks have cute girls... ]]]

It's a little sad that I can't play many games because of it but performance wise I still have no issues. My PC and everything is still ok, etc etc. Source port has no damages. I've also used a 1366x768 resolution laptop for 90% of my life, so I'm already used to smol screens. I do admit I miss being able to look at more stuff at the same time, there's so much you can do with a 1440p screen... ueee I wanna play dead by daylight or TF2 but I can't because my current setup is a debuff.

It's ironic how when I first upgraded to the 1440p screen not too long ago from the 1366 res, I thought that 1440p was too big but now I think that 1366 is too small! wwww I even thought of refunding the 1440p screen because of how large it seemed...

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06/08

Aqua...

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04/08

Brain damage music ( ^^)b

Aside from that, I should probably stop being lazy and make the translations page for compiling translations I've made for VOCALOID music. But my brain feels like liquid today... perhaps I should not put myself in a position to think at the moment.

I watched Mumei's FNAF archive today... I feel a strange sense of nostalgia, mainly because I was really interested in that game's lore when I was in 4th grade. The songs made for it by The Living Tombstone is also aa,a,a,aaaaaaaa.... [shaking from nostalgia]. I also like The Living Tombstone's other music, mainly the zero_one album.

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02/08

I keep stumbling everytime I walk. Even walking itself has become a cumbersome task... _(:^」∠)

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31/07

I like how VOCALOID producers go into slumber and them boom, woe VOCALOID be upon ye

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30/07

I went outside today to retrieve my 45cm miku symphony plushie & deep sea girl miku figurine at the konbini!! in my otaku fit too!! (miku & bocchi & korone & gura keychains all over my clothes and my bag had 4 rin & miku keychains... you could hear the jingle everytime I took a step www) it was fun even though it was just for 10 minutes! !! I really need to do short outings more often

I still haven't opened the box... it's GIGANTIC... it's likely for the plushie's size but aaa i'm excited...

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28/07

I really don't understand human beings after all. It's scary.

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22/07

Longe time no post !!! Heehoo.... recently i've been noticing an alarming trend on the internet where people post photos of their faces and tell their real name/the city they live,,, i'm still iffy about sharing my own age! how do people just not Get scared of sharing that type of information on SNS?

like hello! What happened to lessons about digital footprints... weren't we really strict back in The day where doing all of these things above was a no-no??
I really really dont like a lot of things about the modern internet agh... (takes psychic damage). what happened to warning people about strangers??? (≖_≖ )

It's one of the few reasons why I can't stand to use social media other than YouTube because you'll see people oversharing so much where anyone can see... it hurts my soul ee oo ee... take your privacy more seriously you dummies!!!!!

Well other than my digital footprints Rant... it's already July huh. Honestly the passage of time is very jarring, because everything felt like it took forever during my teenage years, but now since 2023, everything's fast. Too fast. I blink and 2 weeks have already passed... it's important to not take my youth for granted so i want to try to do more... Youthlike stuff, like... going outside!! (hasn't done an outing for a long time.)

I would like to not spend so much time in front of my computer but doing anything else that involves Interacting, Especially Outside... is already very demanding. (っ- ‸ - ς) Not to mention my nocturnal sleep schedule aaoough.

Living is difficult...

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02/06

mweh it's already june?????? Also I got bad at talking to strangers again, save me from my psychological dungeon. ( ;´ - `;) I've just been eating a lot of watermelons this summer (i learned how to cut them and the green part is so hard to cut through....). Surprisingly enough I got used to the heat of summer a lot faster than I thought, since there wasn't any sunlight for 6 months before May.

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06/05

I haven't been going outside much this spring, so I haven't really seen the sakura trees in bloom... I wonder if they're already gone? They don't last long in Europe.

anyway Id Like ownership of this miku plushie specifically...

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02/05

hatsune milku

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29/04

I'm tired of not being able to start or end a day on a happy note recently. When will this cycle end?

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24/04

[forgets to update for a week] Im Slipping Into my old habit........

Ummm Um I finished Kobato good anime yeas. watch it if you can

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16/04

H,mm... [doesnt eat for 2 days.] [Finally eats...] [Stomach hurts] oaky

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15/04

The crab is calm. The crab is serene.
The crab is light and not burdened by worldly grief.

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14/04

I felt a little under the weather but I talked to a friend and feel better now. I have to do my best, today too.

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13/04

Rabbit hole stuck in my brain... ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra a

also alice mare fanmade MV? in my 2024? It's more likely than you think... uwa I want to play miwashiba's games all over again.

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11/04

hi . This didn't take as long as I thought it would since I already did the event script thingy on my previous website. I'm not going to overhaul any previous entries from there to here.

Personally it feels a little sad to let go of something 17 year old me made, but I think I need to in order to move on from who I was, into the present me. I have no shame in displaying it, so it won't be deleted. This and that website are essentially proof of my existence, after all. Even when I'm gone, someone out there will see my previous thoughts, and that's all that matters to me.

Ah... I got existential about owning websites. le average Me Moment
AaAaAAAAaa it's going to take so long with the illust page [eats my hands].